One morning I woke up and I was super dizzy. I told my husband and he told me to rest on the couch and he would take care of making breakfast for our crew. The first thought that came to mind was that maybe I was pregnant, although I didn’t really think that was the case. After resting for a while, I sat up to nurse my daughter and the room started to spin. Like crazy looping circles. I nursed her, drank a ton of water, and took a nap hoping to feel better. It didn’t work. After the nap I still felt horrible.
My daughter needed to nurse again and she was playing on the ground so I decided to lay next to her and nurse her. When I tried to get up, the spinning became even more intense and I began to cry. I was terrified. I had no clue what was happening and all I could think about was my four young children and how much they needed me. I told my husband he had to get me to the hospital and we decided it would be best for him to call an ambulance for me.
Upon arrival at the hospital, I was examined, and the doctor diagnosed me with vertigo. In the middle of him performing some special exercises on me to help with the vertigo I threw up all over the place. I felt awful-both physically and for having thrown up all over him. To make a long story short, I was released from the hospital after a few hours and I came home and slept as much as I could for the next few days.
When I was finally feeling better, I began to restructure the flow of my days and the expectations I had of myself and my life looks very different now. I wake up before my family members and take time to meditate, read, work, practice yoga, and care for myself. I fill my cup so I have plenty to give to my children.
I have a running to do list in my mind but I no longer carry the weight of the world on my shoulders. I treasure the little things, the flowers given to me by my 3.5 year old every time we go for a walk, the living room dance parties, and all the time spent playing with my children.
I’ve learned to slow down, do what I can, and let everything else go. The laundry pile can wait. That being present is vital. Life is happening now.
At first I thought that I was a rare circumstance, but I quickly found that I was not alone. My mission in life now is to pass on the lessons I have learned, the techniques I have been shown, and to help other moms connect with their truth before anxiety or vertigo finds them.
Sarah holds a Master’s Degree in Social Work from the University of Maryland, Baltimore and she has completed two Yoga Teacher trainings. One in hatha yoga, the other in prenatal yoga. She is also a certified Yoga Birth Instructor. She was a Peace Corps volunteer in the Dominican Republic. She is the mother of five beautiful children.
Sarah combines her social work skills, yogic philosophy, and nature’s wisdom to help mothers connect with their inner knowing and celebrate their role as a mother. She believes that there will always be a laundry pile waiting to be folded, and that life and motherhood are to be enjoyed, peaks and valleys and all.